Ahhhh

I just want to tear all my hair out.

So somehow by some luck (Definitely God... Uhmm... Lol. I feel silly saying that nowadays since God does everything. xD) I managed to avoid facing my (Pentecostal) bible study teachers for an entire month.

I'm only keeping quite sane by Ravel's music, haha. I must type about him now, right now! I'm listening to his "Pavane for a dead Princess", and it's just so calming and rich, it brings me to another world. (Been crazy about Ravel this month!! Finished learning 2/3 of his Sonatine within this month!!! I can keep playing his music for hours and hours at a time, it's so calming and stirring, the positive type. Why he even had critics is beyond me!) The Ravel songs on the right are my favorite ones. Go listen to them if you need something soothing. :D Ravel's songs are like, depressing, calm, peaceful and joyous at the same time, it's so magical. Especially number 2.

Ok cut the fangirl talk.


I still can't face Jane! What should I do? Send her the bibletruths.com website? Send her an email telling her about the doctrines I'm uncomfortable with, masking it as a question? I don't know!

And this time no one else can help.

At the last post, I had an attitude of, "If it comes, it comes, I'll just stop worrying about it!", but now, it's just, "ARGGGHHH."

So actually i had two youtube correspondents. One of them doesn't beleifve in Paul, the other was debating with me about the hell thing.

For the second guy, I sent him the bible-truths website and rid myself of him.

But for the first guy, I'm just leaving him alone. I wish I can post what he typed on here, but I don't think I should do that... It's not very nice I guess. And I think it's time I stop looking at others for all the answers..

Uhh. Well maybe not... But I don't think it's really proper to go around posting pms into public.

Nothing much to type about here... I've answered my questions already. Kind of. Yeah. Not that I have many to begin with.

No, actually, I'm booming with questions. Something in me is just not content with sitting around and not looking for historical facts about Scripture. I mean I believe in it, but if someone were to ask me its origin, I can't pull the answer off the top of my head, you know. x_x

Jane gave me this explanation of why we need water baptism for salvation.

She says to compare ourselves with a rug. A rug with a stain on it. In the end, it's not just enough to be cleansed spiritually, we need to "wash away" that stain with water, right?

I didn't comment at the time, but I know what I would say. The rug is our spirit, right? So when we're baptised in spirit, that's it, spiritual water washes the stain away. The rug is not yet waterproof because it's a rug so it still can be stained, but at least you got that spiritual water ready to wash away that stain. Something like that. Why does the water suddenly have to be physical? I mean, there it is, your baptism in spirit is that water you mentioned.

I don't know, they keep quoting Acts 2:38.

Act 2:38 Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

It's almost as if you're getting water baptized for the remission of sins.

Well, this verse plainly says so, actually... Yikes. :(

Well, I shall be off to more studies. :)