Mini diary

4-5-09

Legend: My pentecostal friend = Jane

So today I faced more pressure from Jane. I don't know how to say it. She's telling me that I can't drag this baptism anymore. She still thinks I'm still up and on fire for her pentecostal church. How can I ever tell her the truth? She's doing all she can to get me "saved", and trying to make me go to her church. What can I do? All I'm doing now is to evade all of them.

Wow, my thoughts are in a mess. Haha.

So anyway Jane was all... "If you don't get baptized YOU WILL DIE! Do you get it? Really? You will die, and God's gonna hold me responsible for it!!"

I felt like saying something. I was bursting to say something about it... Something like, "Scripture, please?" (But that'd be rather arrogant of me, I think). I didn't say a single word, can you believe it. I tried to pretend to look slightly troubled and changed the subject.

But she's starting to corner me. I can't worm my way out of these little discussions much longer. Soon she'll know the truth of what I really think, and I don't know how in the world I'm going to handle it peacefully. I like her as a friend, and I really don't wanna lose her because of little (okay, vast and massive) doctrinal nitpicks. Really... If I were to go by the 7 foundational scriptures method (The most solid I've ever seen, honestly), I might make myself look like this great arrogant idiot who thinks she knows everything to Jane, even though she may have no answer. Or she might throw me some unexpected question who only people who have gone through lots of bible studies will know the answer to, and I'll betray my inexperience and ignorance by giving a bad answer. And well, here it is again, she's a really good friend and I don't want to be too criticizing of her doctrine....

I was just reading about "How the Bible came about" by Ray late last night, and wow, I'd forgotten the great depth of Ray's scholarship and research. It really made me more confident in the authenticity of the scriptures we have now, and I think now I have a few answers to give my catholic friend. All those verses that were not in the original manuscripts in bibles now really make me wish I was still in Paul's time, when everything was less confusing and things...

I still wish that the Lord can slow down on his pottery...

But, well, in any case, His will be done.